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4/17/2014 1:48 PM
@wanttobeamommy.... Thank you so much for sharing your story with me. The pressure and stresses that we experience on something that is so natural for others is crazy! I am glad that you found the perfect egg donor for you. That is great.

I too often forget that while my husband is completely supportive, he too is going through the emotions. I need to remind myself of that! You think because they are men and are "typically" stronger with their emotions, they can handle everything on their own and support us too, when really they are probably just putting on a brave face to keep strong for us! Thank you for that reminder!

When I had my laproscopic surgery, they also removed a polyp and some endo. I was in worlds of pains for several months, most likely due to the endo (even though it was small amounts). I had the surgery at the end of February, and I am feeling much better. So I hope that after your surgery, you have successful end results as well!! Keep me posted!

4/17/2014 1:26 PM
babyhynes, you're very welcome! It's very nice to have an outlet. My husband has been extremely patient and supportive but there are times he will get frustrated with me and my crying. I've actually read blogs to him so he could see it is VERY normal to experience these emotions. I think many times he just feels frustrated that he can't do anything to make it better. I have had to stop and be there for him, after all, he is also going through these emotions. It's very heartbreaking to see your husband break down like a baby after getting a negative pregnancy result. One thing I have to say is that this journey only brings you and your spouse closer. I'm very squeamish when it comes to injections and could not bear the thought of doing them on myself, so he did. It was nice that he was a huge part of the process.
My story goes like this. I'm currently 43 (44 in September) and my husband 37 (38 in May). We immediately began to try to conceive a couple of months before we got married, so about 2 years ago. After no success, we sought the help of a fertility specialist. We did a complete IVF cycle with my eggs. There were only two that made it to be transferred. Unfortunately, no pregnancy. We didn't waste any time and began our second cycle. At that time, i wasn't producing many eggs and my doctor was brutally honest and recommended we have timed intercourse. She felt it would be wrong of her to pursue a retrieval knowing the chances of getting good eggs was that slim. The cost and emotional investment would be too high. We tried this approach with unsuccessful results. She then HIGHLY recommended we consider using an egg donor. We searched and went through many candidates and then the right one came into our lives. We have a lot of similar physical characteristics and has a spunky personality. She was the right candidate at the right age, 23. So, all in all, we had 14 embryos, 2 of which were transferred (12 frozen) but unfortunately we did not get pregnant that time (January 2014). Now, we are ready to try again with a new doctor. After examination, turns out I have a fibroid in my uterus and polyps throughout. I am waiting to hear back from my Ob/Gyn to schedule my surgery. God willing we can begin the cycle late summer.
So, as you can see I have been through quite a bit but I have faith that one day I will be celebrating a positive pregnancy test. I will be framing that thing on my wall! Lol!

Have a great day and hope to hear updates from you.

4/17/2014 1:04 PM
@wanttobeamommy.... Thank you so much for the welcome. I am looking forward to getting to know some of you ladies and learning of your journeys as well. I agree with you, patience will definitely be key through the process. And if it was meant to be, it will be! I have clicked my seatbelt and am ready to continue this emtional journey! It is nice to know that there are others that will be going through every step with me and feeling those emotions right along with me.

4/17/2014 12:55 PM
Hi and welcome to the forum. This is a great avenue to take when you need an listening ear and some feedback from women that have been through and continue going through this journey. Your feelings of excitement and nerves is validated. There isn't anyone on here that hasn't gone through them but as you will see, you will need to learn patience. Once you begin injections coupled with the frequent ultrasound visits, I found it to run by quickly. The waiting time to find out if you are pregnant has been the most grueling time for me. It's extremely nervewracking. We just have to remember that this is not in our control, rather mother nature has full control of it.
Anyhow, lots of luck to you and wishing you a positive experience!

4/17/2014 12:41 PM
Hi Ladies. So I am new to this site and this is the st thread that I read! It is nice to see such great support!

I just turn 35 and am about to go through my st IVF Cycle and am incredibly nervous. I went through my Laproscopic procedure, where they had to cut both of my tubes due to blockage. I am waiting on my day 1 so that I can go to the doctors and get blood work, etc, then will start the meds.

Every keeps asking me if I am excited, and while I am extremely excited, I feel that my nerves are getting the better part of me. I am trying to stay as positive as I can, however, when I feel like the chances of it working on the st round seem to be very slim when reading through forums on fertility websites and from friends that have gone through it. I am also overweight and no that can not be helpful for this situation. I have been trying to lose weight, but my nerves are getting the better of me and I can not stop eating!

Luckily, I am surrounding my a wonderful husband, a great family, and awesome friends that are being extremely positive for me. .... but me feeling this way is normal right????

4/4/2014 8:31 AM
@Cann13 How nice!! very happy to hear this GREAT news!! Congratulation!! This gives us hope!! Any chance they are two in there?
I am now on BCP, will start Lupron,Delestrogen, promitium and medrol on 19th...estimate date for FET is second week of May...seems like I still have a mountain.
@wannabemommy...one more week to 14th.
My friend had a baby yesterday!
Have a nice weekend ladies! Hugs!

4/3/2014 4:02 PM
That's amazing news! You see, only takes one embryo and these precious little miracles can happen! Take it all in and enjoy every second of it. It is well deserved and you've been through so much, time to celebrate now!

4/3/2014 3:57 PM
Good afternoon ladies!! Quick update. I went for my second Beta today and the nurse told me it should have gone from 61.3 to at least 120. Well the nurse just called me and said its at 350!!! I am excited and I think I can try and relax now. I was in such shock Monday that I was thinking maybe its too good to be true and maybe it was a false positive. Seems like all is going well so far. I will go in for my FIRST ultrasound the 24th. I finally get to see something other than fibroids or cyst or nothing at all. This time I will see our little nugget and a heartbeat!! I read that it was normal(especially for woman with infertility) to feel scared. I feel like it can be taken away from me at any minute, but I am going to enjoy every minute of it from now on!
I remember when I started I thought this would never happen and I didnt see a light at the end of that dark long painful tunnel. I didnt give up hope or faith and I finally see a light.
There is hope ladies. You all continue to be in my prayers every night.
Have a great evening!

4/1/2014 3:53 PM
@Cann13 Yaaaaaaay!!! Mommy! Congratulations!! I secretly hope they are twins...Very happy for you dear! Stay positive, eat well and enjoy the moment. How are the progesterone shots? I will celebrate this weekend on your behalf! Praise God!
So AF came yesterday...Doc wants to do BW to check if I am pregnant or not ( Irony) before they okay me to start the BCP. Gosh..feels like there is still the mountain ahead of me. What to do? Absolutely nothing but climb one pebble at a time until I am on the other side of the mountain.
A friend of mine is due today...This morning I was thinking about them and wondering how much joy there is in their hearts...and I console myself saying our joys will come in Jan 2015. Oooh how I pray. Two of my friends who I have not seen in a while and live in two different parts of the world today sent me a message asking me if I were pregnant...in my life I never ever thought this is the one thing that would humble me as much as it has...made me feel so desperate as much as it has...ooh boy..here go..let me stop!
@Wannabemommy...hey lady! How are ya! We still on for April 14th? Nwells has been quiet for awhile, since she went skiing. Hope she is well. You ladies are always on my mind...praying for you and in this journey together.
XoXo..

4/1/2014 12:24 PM
Thank you wannabeamommy! I am excited but nervous. Im sure its normal for us to feel that way.
How have you been? I pray for you and all the ladies every night. I cant wait for your appointment on the 14th. See if you can get some answers.

2014mom hope all is well with you and feeling even better.

Have a great day ladies!

3/31/2014 4:54 PM
That's the absolute best news ever! Congratulations to you!!!! Wishing you all the best, cann13!

3/31/2014 4:44 PM
Hi ladies!! So the Dr called my husband and I had to beg him to tell me because I told him to wait until I got out of work. But! I was making myself sick worrying I was even in tears that he finally gave in. The Dr said my Beta level is 61.3!! I AM PREGNANT!!! Oh my gosh I NEVER thought I would be able to sat that out loud!! I told my mom and it was the best feeling to be able to say it! I think I am still in shock. I feel like its a dream. I go back Thursday for my second Beta God willing it continues to go up! Im very excited just cant believe its happening!
Thank you everyone for the positive feedback and always being there for me. I will keep you all posted!
Hope everyone has a great day!! LOTS of baby dust!! XOXO

3/31/2014 12:02 PM
It is so funny how our brains works and play all sorts of tricks on us. Just like your dream, you have been thinking about the blood work and it gives you this dream...I swear everyday that I ws going for my BW and US each night I dreamt about it...either I dreamt that I was late for my appointment or they could not find a vain, or the follicles disappeared or anything...and I have no clue why they are always just negative things! More powers to you for going through the 2ww without a HPT and even taking it a step further waiting until after work to hear the news. We shall keep waiting with you and being positive for you. Will say a prayer for you during my lunch break.
Yes, so I still have a long process ahead of me..waiting for AF then will be on BCP and Lupron (loong sigh) after whcih they will schedule the FET the progestrone injections, then 2ww then 9 months wait..Sometimes I want to go to sleep and wake up in December..very pregnant...such a journey! There should be a national holiday just for women and men who go through this.
You friend is having triplets?? Ooooo..clap clap clap..how far along is she? I like such stories. Boy...triplets..wow.
Going to have a moment to pray then have lunch...thinking of you..XoXo

3/31/2014 10:26 AM
Good Morning Ladies!!
2014MOM I'm glad to hear from you! I have been thinking about you so glad you are feeling better!! So now you wait for AF and then you do your FET? I know you can't wait. Let me tell you the 2ww is as bad as everyone says. LOL. I thought I wouldn't stress it and just fly thru it. NOPE!! Not the case at all. Its all I thought about day and night 24/7! I had a few nightmares. Lastnight was the craziest one. I was being chased by a man and I could see the Dr's office but just could NOT get to them in time for my appointment. Needless to say I was restless and feel like I did not sleep at all.
So we went for our blood work today it was fast but God I'm just so anxious. I told the nurse to call my husband with the news today because he is off of work and I do not want to get any bad news at work. When he picks me up after work he will break the news to me. He's just so positive about it all and is convinced that I am going to get my BFP today. He always tells me to trust him that everything will be ok but its hard to do that when we have no control over anything. I fought with myself for the whole 2ww. One second Im positive the next I swear I feel period cramps or bloated. I read about the sideaffects of the progestrone and it gives you ALLLL the same signs as pregnancy would so it really plays with your mind. I have been feeling nauseuos way more often lately. Friday my friend had to drive me home because I was dizzy and really felt like I was going to vomit. So like I said I fight with myself. I dont want to get too excited then be disappointed, but either way I will be devastated if I get a BFN. Today will be a LONG day!! LOL.
I went to my friends baby shower yesterday. She is having triplets after 13 yrs and 3 cycles of TTC. All girls. She is so extremely happy and I am so happy for her. Was great to see her pregnant and finally getting what her and her husband have worked so hard for. Just shows. Never give up!! Cant wait to see them.
wannabeamommy Thank you for your prayers as well and positive thoughts and energy. I will keep you all posted. Fingers CROSSED!!! EEEEKKKKK!!
Good luck to all you ladies. Have a GREAT day!!!

3/31/2014 8:17 AM
hello ladies.....bedrest really helped....was really bad Mon to Wednesday but as of Thursday, started feeling better...and now much better...thanks for all your thoughts. Cann13 and Praying for you....and all of you ladies...Do you realize most of us will be pregnant together and 2015 we shall be mothers!! Can't wait for my FET! AF where are you?? Come quick!

3/31/2014 2:04 AM
Cann13, sending you lots of luck for tomorrow's appointment! Go Team Baby!!!

2015, glad to hear you're feeling better!!!! Keep the faith!

3/24/2014 3:53 PM
Lol, at least you know that it is a normal thing to be this bloated. In the meantime, eat and drink away! Glad you were able to get in tomorrow.
Actually, my Ob/Gyn did speak to the fertility specialist that did my sonogram over the weekend. Like most doctors, they all have their own opinion. Like you said, I want to maximize the chances of getting pregnant with whatever I need to do. I hope once she sees me on the 14th, she will agree with my doctor and do it. I just hope she does it right.

3/24/2014 3:37 PM
@Cann13 nice to hear from ya! Good girl, just keep the faith, only few more days! And I am hoping for you that both embryos attached. I will knoe tomorrow how many of mine will be frozen. Prayefully all of them. Yes the center called me back again, they want me to go in tomorrow for ultra sound and they want me to drink all the getorade there is in the world..and eat salty foods...meanwhile I look six moths pregnant!! I cant't even see my belly button, it has disappeared into the swelling..oy vey...@wannabemommy is there away all the doctors can collaborate and just do what is 100% best for you? Empahsize to them that the reason you are doing this is to increase/maximize your chances of carrying your babie full term. Why is one doc thinking it may only help alittle when the others said it should help alot. Perharps they should all talk to each other to give you best results.

3/24/2014 3:04 PM
Good to hear from you, cann13. I remember the excitement of when I had my transfers. Just knowing that those were our "babies" brought tears to my eyes. It was a moment of such great joy! My husband took video of both times we transferred and we have the images of the second time. I think the worst thing we could do is surf the web. Keep your cool cann13 and let's see how Monday goes. Remember it only takes one of the two, nice if they both took but all it takes is one.
As far as my surgery, I know I am definitely moving forward with it but as to where and with whom, I won't knonw until the 14th. If my Ob/Gyn doesn't want to follow through with the specialist's recommendation, I might move on. I'm excited but afraid I might come across problems along the way.
Have a great day, relax and hope to hear from you Monday/Tuesday.

3/24/2014 2:40 PM
Hi ladies!! I know I have been quiet. Been just trying to lay low wasn't on the sight much.
mom2014 I have heard and read alot about whats going on with you. Although it is painful from what I have heard it is "normal" because of all the meds we use our ovaries can overextend themselves. I know, such a double edged sword. We have to do this to get where we want to be, but it can also hurt us. So far I have not suffered from this, but I was worried about it. Drink plenty of water and gatorade. I have been living off of gatorade since I started the stims and still am because it can still happen. Hope you feel better soon!
wannabeamommy I think you should do what you think is best for you. Have it removed and take it from there. Its not doing you any good there anyway. I know its frustrating, but you have been through worse. Stick to your guns and do what you have to.
So, I had my transfer thursday and boy was I in pain. Mostly because I had to have a full bladder and the pushing on my stomach for the ultrasound and the Dr having to go in and transfer my 2 little embryos. All of that together is not fun, but I kept the big picture in mind. I am technically getting pregnant right now. WOW! It was a surreal feeling. When I walked out of there is when it all hit me. I am going to be someones Mom. Although I did'nt want to get too excited because you never know what can happen,we did take it all in and enjoyed that moment and thanked God. We made it this far this time and are praying that they just around now.
The 2 days in bed are brutal. You really don't want to do anything, you get bored, just vulnerable. I did do some reading on what can happen during the 2ww, but if I get wrapped up in all the do's and don't and the maybe's I will drive myself CRAZY! I have been trying to keep busy but lets be honest, it's still in the back of your head hovering. I think I have been handling it good so far I have my moments where I day dream about how it would feel to be pregnant or if its twins or just one. I just can't believe we are here right now. I always felt like its not gonna happen for us and here we are so close yet so far. I go in next Monday the 31st to see if I finally get my BFP! Keeping our spirits high. Just one week and we will know if we will finally be parents. Such a rollercoaster. I dont want to get too ahead of myself.
Hope you ladies have a good day! And thank you SO much for all your well wishes! XOXO

3/24/2014 1:53 PM
2014Mom, is there any way you could see your physician? That just seems a little weird but then again, they did not panic because it probably is something that they have seen before. For peace of mind, you should try to get in to see your doctor. The good thing is that you will be going soon for an ultrasound before the transfer. Hope you aren't in any pain right now.
I got a call this morning from my Ob/Gyn. She spoke with my fertility specialist over the weekend. He is recommending that she remove the fibroid through an incision to get the whole thing out but she is hesitant about doing so. She doesn't seem to think that it will make much difference with my fertility. She also thinks that the healing process is a lot longer. I don't know who to trust most. I would rather the entire fibroid be removed. She was able to squeeze me in on the 14th for an ultrasound so she could get a better feel for what's inside. If she does not want to remove it, more than likely, I will change medical groups to go to the Ob/Gyn I was recommended to.
I'm going to call to see how quickly I could make these changes or if I have to wait for rollover time. I have never had issues with my HMO and I hope I don't start now.

3/24/2014 1:30 PM
So an update...called the fer center and they think my reaction is hyperstimulation...of course..I know..I am no longer using FSH so why would I have hyperstimulation? They say coz my estrogen levels were high, they highly suspect that is the issue, coz I did not mention in the previous post I look like I am 6 months pregnant! My stomach is BLOATED/ SWOLLEN..it's concerning. They say maybe some liquid (I have no idea where the liquid came from) may have leaked in to my stomach causing the swelling..and to be honest I was suspecting there is liquid in my stomach just from the way it is swollen. @Cann13 long time no hear. Waiting with you. @Wannabemommy found a doctor yet?

3/24/2014 11:01 AM
cann13, how are you feeling? It's been 4 days since your transfer...I hope the nerves aren't rattling you too much. I was listening to the news this morning about a new study. It said that a new study has found that stress can affect fertility. How can this process not be stressful though? I just don't get it. I had read another article that indicated that there was no evidence that stress was a factor. Who knows?!?!?
Hope you're doing well and that we get some good news by the end of this week.

XOXO

3/24/2014 10:57 AM
Good morning, 2014Mom. I'm so sorry to hear about all the discomfort your are going through. I can't remember being on doxycycline. If I was, I did not have a reaction as such. Thankfully, I can't say I have had a bad reaction to any of the injections or medications that I took during my IVF cycles. Good idea to check in with the center to make sure all is ok and a "normal" reaction to the meds. Hope your morning is more comfortable.

3/24/2014 8:14 AM
Hello ladies, its been quiet here. Hope you all had a nice weekend. I can't quiet say the same. After my ER I was given doxycycline....I guess to prevent any infection. Since taking the medication I have noticed my stomach is super swollen. DH and I were not sure why...thought it was side effect of the FSH though we were wondering why the side effects were coming after completing the FSH...then came the server ulcers..OMG!! I could not sleep Saturday night into Sunday morning and last night into this morning. My stomach is literally on fire..I crawled in the whole house in severe pain. I really never wanted to go to the emergency room as DH was suggesting...then at 4am it calmed down and we were able to catch a 2 hour sleep. Of course now I have to read about doxycycline and one of the severe side effects is esophagus ulcers...and severe bloating...has anyone of you ladies had this happen? Waiting for the fert center to open to talk to them..
Xoxo

3/20/2014 10:59 AM
27 eggs, 15 fertilized?!?!?! Wowsers! That's amazing! That's great to hear! Hopefully, the 6 weeks will swing by. I seemed to think that my prep time went by rather quickly as there was always something going on between medications, injections and weekly visits for ultrasounds. The eternal period is getting the pregnancy test results back. I had the hardest time with that. I was sure that I was pregnant in January because I felt so many "weird" symptoms that I had not felt before. Anyhow, no reason to dwell on the past but best to look forward. We all have been through so much and deserve to be mommies.
My sonogram was faxed over to my Ob/Gyn just yesterday and I was told that I would hear back no later than today as to what I would need to do. I have a feeling I will be referred to another Ob/Gyn that takes my HMO. I can't believe how complex the insurances and physicians can get. For example, my Ob/Gyn will follow me for paps, etc but if I were to be pregnant, she wouldn't be my doctor because she does not take HMO for that care. Well, I started doing research last night but, for some reason, the HMO site kicked me out. I'll continue today.

Have a wonderful day ladies and you are on my mind!

3/20/2014 9:40 AM
Hello ladies, @Cann13 all the best! you will do good mommy! Rooting and praying for you. Woke up at 3 am to pray for all of you ladies..let us know how it goes. @wannabemommy, how is it on your end? Any news from the doctor? I suspect you and I will be pregenant at the same time..coz I was told I have to wait approximately 6 weeks for ET. Yesterday the retrieved 27 eggs (I was just in shock) I was waiting to hear how many fertilized before I update you. RE just called 15 fertilized, I have to wait until Tuesday to know how many made it to be frozen. I was told that once AF comes I will be on BCP and the incredible Lupron for 2 weeks before ET. Now I am eagerly waiting for AF. What will I do with myself these 6 weeks as I wait? If this had taught me anything, it is patience. Waiting to hear from you all. Hugs.

3/19/2014 3:00 PM
Woohoo!!! Congratulations! That is wonderful news. I've been on alert waiting to hear from you guys. That is great. We've lived through the different cycles and know that each one is different and I am so glad that this was true for your current situation. So, tomorrow? How exciting!!!! I can't wait to hear about your results next week. Remember to take it easy and rest as much as possible! Have your husband pamper you, which I am sure he does anyway!
Big hug to you!!!!

3/19/2014 2:48 PM
wannabeamommy Quick update.I just got a call from the Dr. I will be transferring TOMORROW day 3. He says we have 2 embryos look pretty good one better than the other, tomorrow we will know just how much stronger but he plans on tranferring both!! Now for them to hold on. Im excited and nervous at the same time. Such a rollercoaster, but happy we made progress this time. I will keep you posted. Now hurry up and wait time. eeek Have a good day.
2014MOM hope all is going well. You are on my mind.

3/19/2014 10:10 AM
Good morning, ladies. Well, I'm cheering you both on from California! Lots of luck for transfer/results that come through today. I'm anxious to be at that stage already.
Have a great day and we'll be in touch!

3/19/2014 9:34 AM
Good Morning Ladies!! 2014MOM GOOD LUCK today!! you are on my mind. Send you prayers and baby dust. Keep us posted.
Wannabeamommy keep us updated on your surgery. I am waiting to hear from the Dr today to see if my embryos are strong and possibly transfer tomorrow. Fingers crossed.
Have a great day!!!

3/18/2014 11:20 AM
Good morning, it's nice to hear from you all today. 2014MOM, thank you so much for your kind words. I think we are forced to be patient and try to keep as positive as possible. Believe me, I have my moments of frustration and sleepless nights where I do nothing but cry but my better half keeps my grounded and gives me lots of support. I'm really lucky to have such a wonderful husband...love him dearly! Wishing you many strong eggs for tomorrow's retrieval!
Cann13, two eggs are better than no eggs. Let's hope and pray they are strong and healthy. I keep thinking to myself, it only takes one! I completely understand that you don't have the strength to go through another cycle with that fear. Try not to focus on that right now as you don't know if that will even be an option right now. You might get pregnant with this cycle. If you must consider an egg donor, it really isn't as bad as one would think. I think I just accepted the hand I was dealt with every step of the way. At the end of the day, we all want to be mommies. In a perfect world, we wouldn't be here but life is not perfect but we can work with what we get and nothing is impossible. Chin up my friend...you will be a mommy to a beautiful baby!
ICSI is a great thing, you know for sure they will be getting fertilized with some assistance. Let us know what they tell you this afternoon.
I'm hoping that I get some feedback today from any of my doctors. My new doctor is supposed to give his consent to fax my sonogram to my Ob/Gyn. Hopefully, she can tell me what my next step would be. I have a feeling that I will be referred elsewhere for the procedure. Whatever it is, I hope I find out asap! I hate waiting! Unfortunately, these cycles are all a waiting game. You are right, I'm hoping that this is the answer to our infertility issues. During one of my last ultrasounds with my former fertility specialists, I was told that another polyp was growing but it was so small that it didn't need to be removed. Not ever did she mention the fibroid. I don't know if it is new or just something that's gradually growing and a few months back not visible. Like you said, I'm glad they found this problem and will be the answer to me getting pregnant!
Well, ladies, have a wonderful week....cann13, take your pain meds if needed and feel better. 2014mom, all the best tomorrow!
XOXOXO!




3/18/2014 9:41 AM
Good Morning Ladies!! 2014MOM Holy cow 19 follicles is GREAT!! Congrats!! You have great chances because you have alot to work with I am so happy for you. Praying they will be able to transfer ASAP as I know that waiting a month is going to be torture!!
So my retrieval went pretty much as I expected. I had 3 follicles and out of the 3 he was only able to retrieve 2 eggs(Same as last time). As soon as I heard that I turned to my husband and I told him if this does not work this time I can not go through this again. I will have to talk about donor eggs. Mentally this time around I went through alot. Even with the Dr changing protocol and all his effort all of our effort I still get the same results. We are praying at least this time we have strong eggs and fertilize. The fact that the Dr is doing ICSI this time around kind of gives me a little more hope. Hopefully they have a chance this time around. I will be recieving a call today to tell us how they are doing so far. I woke up in more pain this time than the last, and thats because he was really poking around in there really trying to get all he could. I can tell on his face he kind of felt defeated, he has been fighting right along with us the whole time. We are keeping hopeful, it is out of our hands right now we did all we could. Thank you all for your prayers. I felt the love from everyone yesterday and it made me feel good!
wannabeamommy as soon as you find a Dr and do this surgery you are able to take the next step and hopefully get what you have been waiting for. I am just so happy that you finally got an answer or at least closer to an answer as to why you have not been able to conceive before. My question is why are you JUST finding out about this now? Did it just happen or did the Dr before just miss it?Either way you know now and you can move forward.I am pulling for you.
2014MOM I will most definitely be praying for you and you will be in my thoughts tomorrow. I am so excited for you lots of luck and baby dust!! Praying for a good phone call today! TORTURE!! XOXO

3/18/2014 8:07 AM
@wanttobemommy If the worst news we can hear is that the Dr. does not take HMO, then we will take it. Look at it on the bright side, once you get a dr that can take HMO, you are a step closer to your dream. I think in the forum, I am yet to meet someone more postively patient than you. So worry not, let us find this doctor and we shall be fine. Thinking of you and praying you get a good doctor that takes your HMO. Hugs! And thanks for the best wishes tomorrow...will keep you posted.

3/17/2014 11:30 PM
19 follicles?!?!?! Wow, that's great!im sure you and they will do just fine. The likelihood of having a good number of eggs with so many follicles is good. Yay, congrats and will be thinking of you on Wednesday!
Cann13, thinking about how your retrieval went....keep us posted.
I had some disappointing news toddy that the doctor that I was referred to doesn't take my HMO plan so now I have to look for plan B for my surgery. I'm waiting on my HMO Ob/Gyn to get back to me about that. It's now going to take a little longer. 😕

3/17/2014 10:47 PM
Hello ladies, hope you all had a nice St.Patricks Day. Did my Ovidred shot at 9pm, ER is Wednesday at 8:30am. So far 19 follicles > 1.8 and few <1.8. Praying so hard. Also nurse said that they will let me know on Wednesday after the ER foes sure if I will have to do a FET. Progestrone still high but it has started going down. Keeping on with prayers and staying positive. Thinking of all of you.

3/17/2014 11:21 AM
Woohoo...Happy St. Patrick's day to you cann13! It's a lucky day today, you'll see!!! Thinking about you...sending you lots of hugs!!!!

3/17/2014 10:06 AM
@Cann13 thinking of you!

3/17/2014 9:35 AM
Good morning ladies!! I am on my way to retrieve! I'm feeling good other than feeling really swollen this a.m. I am not nervous just praying for strong healthy eggs. I am hungry and of course I cant eat. Wearing my green and lucky four leaf clover socks! Feeling good. Happy St.Patrick's day and lots of hugs.. I Will keep you posted.

3/16/2014 4:40 PM
Good afternoon ladies. Hope you all had a good weekend.
2014mom, don't lose hope with those numbers. We need to take one day at a time. It's funny how things can change with our bodies from one day to another. If your doctor said all looks good, I'm sure it does. ER will take place Wednesday and if need be your transfer be a little prolonged, it's ok. With a process as such, we all have learned to be patient. As my husband says, as long as they don't tell you it's impossible and that you can't get pregnant, don't lose hope. Xoxo
cann13, I really hope that the fibroid is the problem and once removed, I will get pregnant! Thank you so much for your good thoughts and prayers. For some reason, I too, am having good feelings about this. 😊 Are you excited about tomorrow? I can't wait to hear from you. I find that any waiting period during the entire ivf cycle is quite stressful and torturous. I'm glad that we have each other to use as bouncing boards. Only we know what it feels like. I wish we all lived in the same state and could meet to chat and vent.
Ok, ladies, have a wonderful rest of your Sunday and cann13, I'll be thinking about you tomorrow.

3/16/2014 2:17 PM
Hello ladies, hope you are all having a good weekend....blood work shows my progesterone is high...at 3.5 so the doctor says all looks good except for that. so he says he will Sschedule one more day of FSH and tomorrow wait for instructions for my trigger shots and looks like ER will be on Wednesday. So because of the high progesterone which he highly suspect is due to a cyst raoture, he will not do an ET until the levels are at a point lower than 1.5. Wanted to feel bad a little but got over it. @wannabemommy looks like you and I will have ET in April.....@Cann good luck tomorrow, will be thinking of you. let us know how things go. Sending my best and praying for you. @Hopeful29 how are you dear..wish we could hear from you dear. you are in my thoughts and prayers....we care and we all understand. Hugs.

3/15/2014 5:38 PM
Hi wannabeamommy!! I am super excited that everything went well at the new Dr, and really excited they may have found a reason behind everything you have been going through. I told you a fresh new beginning would be just what you need. Im praying for you and I have a good feeling!!
So yes retrieval is Monday for sure. I am So ready too!! So swollen and uncomfortable!! I went for bloodwork and u/s today still waiting in the bloodwork to see if I have to take one more night of stims along with the trigger tonight. Dr said the follicles are looking good, so I am just praying for strong enough eggs and at least all 3 this time.
2014MOM I am not really nervous because I know what to expect for the retrieval, I WILL be a mess after because the waiting of the calls to see how they mature is torture. Especially in my case since I only have 2 possibly 3 to work with. I know how you feel about the daily appointments. I had vacation time at work that started January and I have used up almost all of my time on appointments. Plus the waiting and the not knowing is alot,but you seem to be getting good news especially with the follicles quantity.Thats great!! Hang in there. it seems like its taking forever but thats because we have been waiting and wanting this so long. Your time is getting close. Good luck.


3/15/2014 7:31 AM
Hello ladies, its 7:20am here and I am in for my blood work and ultrasound.@wannabemommy I am 32yrs...DH will be 40 in June.l Last jJune I was told I had blocked tubes and that was the problem. Then in November did another HSG test and results said my tubes were okay..so doctor said ours is unexplained infertility borderline. We tried Clomid for two months then decided to go for IVF.....we really don't know for sure why we didn't get pregnant on our own plus Clomid...Might I add that EVERYONE around me is pregnant..and I am happy for them....there is just this one lady who was married after me and five months later she was pregnant I found myself saying it's unfair but I quickly got out of that attitude....I even threw her a baby shower three weeks ago. I am.happy to hear you got better treatment at the new place and that they seems to be more responsive..I am.routing for you and we shall be mommies soon! :-)
@cann13 are you nervous about your ER? I can't wait for my ER my daily trips to get blood work and ultrasound are ok but can be tiring. I was reading here that pineapples help with implantation is that true? I am praying for you and hoping you will get good mature eggs that will result in a healthy baby. Stay positive keep us posted. All these ladies are in my thoughts.
DH and I are keeping this extremely private. my mum knows and that's about it.
love you ladies.

3/14/2014 10:57 PM
Ladies, I've been briefly reading your posts throughout the day but have not been able to respond as we were at our office consultation (lasted 5 hours). I just came home and can now add to your comments.
Hopeful29, I am soooo very sorry for your results. I know your pain and there isn't anything anyone can say to make you feel better. Go ahead and let it out. It needs to sink in in order for you to move forward. Don't give up, I know you won't! You have come this far that you have the strength to keep going! We're here for you, for each other. Hugs and prayers heading your way.

2014MOM...great news! Congratulations! Yay for your 13 follicles. How old are you, if you don't mind me asking. My egg donor was 23 and produced 24 eggs.

Cann13, 3 is a good number especially if the eggs are mature and ready for retrieval. So, Monday is the day?!?! That's exciting. I know it's hard to not be excited but, you know what, happiness is good for the soul! (I get you, though, about being afraid of having too many expectations) You're only 32 so, your doctor is right that you have good eggs. I'll be thinking of you on Monday and saying a prayer for all the best!

So an update on today's visit...it went great! I met with two doctors and they reviewed my case. They are amazing! They suggested a saline sonogram right then and there (ouch) and discovered I have a uterine fibroid and a few polyps. I need another hysteroscopy and a surgery to remove the fibroid. Because I have HMO, they can't do the procedure unless I pay out of pocket. So, they went as far as looking for a doctor they know took my plan. Also, because they discovered I had HMO after the sonogram, they are waiving the cost for it. I can't say enough about this place! We met with the business manager and she was awesome and made it all happen. They took the time to study our case, talk to us, answer questions, etc...5 hour visit. So, looks like the surgery will be sometime this month, transfer in April. I'm really excited and hoping that because of my uterine bumps, I couldn't conceive and that I will be able to do after surgery.

Xoxoxo and wishing you all a weekend full of peace and positive thoughts and energy.

3/14/2014 4:46 PM
Good Afternoon ladies! I am SO happy to hear that your follicles grew 2014MOM!! That is great news. 13 is a lucky number for me so hoping and praying it is for you too. Unfortunately I wanted at least 7 myself and went today and looking like 3 will be my lucky number. RE just called and said I will be triggering tomorrow and retrieving Monday. I am hoping for the best but numb at the same time as I dont want to get too excited or expect too much. Dr said because of my age (32) we have a good chance of good eggs. We will see. Like I said no expectations. After my 1st cycle I just go with the motions.

Hopeful29 I am so sorry I send you all of my love and prayers. I hope the Dr can give you answers that will help with your next step. Spend your time with your husband relax as much as possible(if possible). My heart breaks when I hear one of us goes thru so much and we have nothing at the end. We go thru so much. You will be in my prayers.

wannabeamommy, how did todays visit go with the new Dr? I hope all went well and you get a good feeling from them.

I will keep you all updated after retrieval Monday if not Tuesday. Praying that 3 is good enough and strong enough!!

Hope you all have a great weekend. XOXO

3/14/2014 3:59 PM
@2014mom, thank you so much. DH tried so hard to stop me from crying, but I told him I want to let it all out. it helps to cry to satisfaction. yes, I am making an appointment to meet with the doctor on the next step. thanks and all the best to you too. all the best to everyone of us.

3/14/2014 3:20 PM
@Hopeful29, my heart goes out to you, I am so sorry to hear this, take a moment and just let is all out, cry scream and let it all out. Know that we are holding your hand, we are there crying with you. Take heart dear. It is a tough journey.Your baby will come, just get up and keep trying until something happens. Do not lose hope. Hopefully the doctor will have a talk with you tell you what really happened and atleast once you know you can decide if/when you want to start again. You are in my thoughts dear, sending you lots of love and hugs.

3/14/2014 2:57 PM
Hello ladies, so i went in for my test this morning, got home and took a nap. I woke up to pee and noticed my spotting had increased to bright red bleeding, so at that moment I started crying cause I knew what it meant. shortly after, a nurse called me with my result. it was negative. cant tell what wrong when i had a good embryo transferred. @wanttobeamommy, you are strong! this isn't something i can handle.

3/14/2014 9:54 AM
Hello ladies, so I was called back by the nurse yesterday, was glad to get some good news. I praise and thank God so much. I have a total of 13 follicles so far (day before I had two or one they weren't sure). As usual did blood work and ultra sound today. Will wait to hear what they say. I had to take Ganiralix yesterday as well and my bravelle went up, from 75ui to 150ui. Menopur remains at 75ui. Yesterday the nurse told me she will let me know today approximately when the retrival will take place, but tentatively Tuesday or wednesday. Reading these posts I see that some good news are short lived...so sometimes I do not know how to feel. I guess until I hold my kids in my hands then I can say it was good news...otherwise it is just holding your breath and staying 100% positive.
Cann13..ooh..all BEST in your retrieval I am staying positive for you. I was reading somewhere in this site that someone had only 4 eggs retrieved and only 2 ferterlized and those two were poor grade but the doctor transferred anyway and told her that chances were 5%, she ended up a mother of a healthy baby girl! So do not go by what you see, go by faith. Thanks to you and Wanttobemommy coz now I will ask at by doctor's office about the left over medications, if the office wants to buy them from me or if I a patient paying out of pocket is interested. That would be nice if I can sell them, coz I still need 600USD for the anestheisologist during retrieval. Between bloodwork/ultrasound to the time my nurse calls me with results, my mind wonders in all the places! Lord Jesus, the waiting for your follicles are looking good or not looking good...I just want to go to sleep and wake up 9 months pregnant! Ladies I thank God for this forum and for all of you. In my thoughts. Hugs

3/13/2014 1:55 PM
Hi cann13...that's very similar to what happened to us on our second cycle. The doctor didn't see that the couple follicles looked very promising and discouraged us from pursuing the retrieval. She said that some eggs can get lost during the retrieval and felt that we would invest too much emotion and money for something that had slight chances. She would have done it if we wanted to but we thought she knew best and followed her recommendation of timed intercourse. What you (we all) need to remember is that it takes just one!
I'm pretty excited about tomorrow's appointment. I just don't know how to request my medical records. I have a feeling I am going to come across some difficulties.

2014MOM, I was able to purchase some vials of Bravelle and Menopur from my doctor's office at a discounted rate from another patient that didn't use them. Also, with my left overs from my first cycle, I was able to use on my second cycle. Check the expiration dates and go from there.

Lots of luck my fellow IVF sisters
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