10/27/2011 8:26 AM
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I had my US yesterday and it was the greatest thing! We got to see our little bitty baby and see the heartbeat. It was beating 107 BPM. AMAZING!! We were so excited & of course I was in tears. I am able to relax a lot more now. I know I am still very early (6 weeks), but it was so reassuring to see something in there and to see a little heart beating. Dr. said everything looked very normal for this stage of my pregnancy. I go back next Thursday (11/3) for another US. They gave me a due date of June 19th. It is so funny b\c my father-in-law has a birthday 6\3, my husband 6\26, my mother-in-law 6\28, and my mother 6\16. June is a very busy month and it's going to get even busier! =) I couldn't be happier!!
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10/26/2011 2:17 PM
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lkerce - Thinking of you and wishing good news on your ultrasound. FYI - I was able to see/hear a fetal heartpole at around the same time.
JZ - Hoping that your back pain is not too bad, always let your DR know about all your concerns, no matter how minimal.
WELBD - wishing you success in your upcoming frozen cycle. I hear good things about it.
countrygrl - Praying for a smooth transfer for you!!!
Hopefully I got evryone, baby dust to all!!!!
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10/24/2011 2:07 PM
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lkerce- I know that I had an u/s right around the same time during my first cycle and I didn't get a heartbeat at that point, but got a photo of the sac that was in there. The Dr. gave us a picture as our "baby's first photo". It was really cool. I think it can be too early to see/hear the heartbeat, but I also know it varies. I also know that it varies from person to person and pregnancy to pregnancy as far as the symptoms you may feel. However, it does sound promising for you that your labs have been good and the symptoms that you are experiencing are good too. So hang in there, you're almost there. Best wishes to you.
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10/24/2011 12:06 PM
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JZ- nice to know someone else is in the same boat.
I changed my US appointment from Friday (28th) to Wednesday (26th). Can anyone tell me what I might expect? I will be around 5wks 5days pregnant. I need to see that something is in there for all of this to seem "real". There are some days I "feel" pregnant and there are some days I do not at all. It is so wierd! The only real symptoms I have had are low back ache, fatigue, and sore boobs.
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10/23/2011 11:22 PM
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Cntry Grl: So nice to hear that you had some luck today. Hope it continues in the next few days with your transfer. Sounds like a great number! Hoping for a good result for you. Keep us posted !
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10/23/2011 3:54 PM
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WELBD - Thanks! I am home resting now. Still sore, but nothing I can't handle. They were able to retrieve 14 eggs, although I know they said some where small. Feeling pretty good about everything.
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10/23/2011 3:34 PM
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Lkerce - I am 10.5 weeks pregnant, and I have lower back pain daily. Like yours, mine started early, and has persisted. I try to prop my feet up when I'm able to, but other than that, and not being on my feet for long stretches of time, I haven't found anything that helps. If you find something that helps, let me know!
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10/22/2011 10:02 PM
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Cntry Girl: You've done everything you can do at this point. So, take it easy and hang in there. Lots of rest, lots of water and await the transfer. Best wishes to you. No intercourse, and just hold on for the ride for your 2ww. Good luck!
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10/22/2011 6:46 PM
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I am scheduled for retrieval tomorrow morning at 8! A little nervous, but ready to get everything going!! Any words of advice? <3
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10/19/2011 9:42 PM
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lkerce: That is exciting news! Sounds like all is well for you. I hope everything continues to progress positively!
As for myself. I had the "post-cycle consult", also known as "what do we do now, since we failed". I have two frozen embryos, so the next time my period begins, I will begin the FET cycle., which should be sometime early November. Obviously, I'm nervous about it. I am, however, happy that it is a heck of a lot cheaper than a fresh cycle. It's a good indication that you've been doing this stuff a while when about $2000 isn't very much! LOL It also seems a little less stressful, not as many meds involved.
Have any of you ever tried to negotiate with the RE about the costs of the service? My father-in-law seems to think we should do that, but I've never even thought of doing that. It's a shame that I live only about 3 hours from Illinois where the insurance pays for this IVF stuff!
Best Wishes
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10/19/2011 2:59 PM
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My results from today's blood work:
hcg: 1,490
prog: greater than 45 & that's all she told me, but said that was great
Estrogen: 3,138 (not really sure what this # means either, but she said it was great!)
I'm just happy to know that my pregnancy is progessing. I try very hard not to worry, but I tense up everytime a Dr. appointment rolls around. I've been extra worried since I have had low back aches and yesterday I began to have diarrhea (sorry if that's TMI). I had it yesterday morning and then was ok for most of the day, but came back yesterday afternoon and back again this morning. I hope that is not giong to be the type of "morning sickness" that I have. However, I have been around my 1yr. old niece who just got rid of a 1 week stomach virus, but I have to go over there to my POI shots. My sis-in-law has to do the shots for me b\c my husband said he just couldn't..LOL...So there is not telling what is going on in my body. They scheduled my 1st ultrasound for next Friday the 28th. Can't wait to see something! =)
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10/18/2011 4:28 PM
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Lavonda....as others have said, have your RE or OB run a full recurrent loss blood panel on you. Mine was covered by insurance. These tests will test you both for blood clotting disorders and other possible immune issues such as Lupus, etc. My OB ran this series of test on me last year after I went into preterm labor and lost our twins at 23 weeks. Thank heavens she did as we found out I have 3 various blood clotting disorders that I was unaware of. I have been on Lovenox my last couple of cycles and daily since transfer & my BFP. I am currently 20 weeks and so far, so good. These tests will also show you if you have issues like low absorbtion of B vitamins (such as Folic Acid) due to MTHFR and a host of other issues. Good luck to you!
Snowie....how is baby girl doing? Are you getting into any type of routine yet or simply just exhausted? Hope all is well.
lkerce....your back pain is likely due to the stretching ligaments and your uterus getting itself ready for pregnancy, but do tell your doctor about it. I never had backpain that early on but have experienced back spasms sporadically during this pregnancy. My OB has told me to keep my feet up whenever possible and try not to dangle my legs (like on a bar chair or anywhere else where my feet don't touch the ground).
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10/18/2011 1:34 PM
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Hey everyone. I was wanting to ask if any of you that have been pregnant via IVF had low back pain? I am considered to be about 4 weeks along and I have a dull achiness in my lower back. Just enough to bug me! It started doing this on Saturday and some Sunday, but yesterday didn't really bother me and now it is back today. I've read it could be from my ligaments softening and getting ready for all the chance in my body. Anyway, just wanted to see if it was "normal".
I go back tomorrow for another beta. Nurse said if everything looked goo I will come the last week of October for my 1st US!!! YAY!!
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10/18/2011 9:59 AM
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Cntrygrl - Sounds like a good start to me. I was told they shoot for 12 because once you start to get a lot of them you are overstimulating and the quality isn't as good. it's more about quality then quantity. But it is still nerve racking. I only had 6 and I freaked out because I thought I should have had the 12 the RE told me they wanted. In the end all 6 fertilized and they put 3 back in. It worked for me the first time and I have a healthy 7 month old baby girl. Good Luck and hang in there.
By the way when I was going through the process of ER and ET and also the 2ww I ate Panera souffles a lot! I think the protein helped.
Btobe - Good luck with your delivery I hope that everything goes smoothly for you! Sleep as much as you can in the hospital.
Ikerce - Congratulations! That sounds like a good strong number. There is a website called betabase that has the numbers so you can kind of compare with other woman. It also gives you an idea of what the betas are for multiples.
Nwells - good luck on your up coming cycle!
As for me my daughter turned 7 months old on Saturday and is just so much fun. The older she gets the more fun we have. It is so amazing to see her learning and discovering new things. We are having fun trying all kinds of new foods. She loves to eat!
To everyone good luck with what ever stage you are in!
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10/17/2011 10:45 PM
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LAVONDA -I don't remember the exact name of the test I had but it checked for antibody in my blood. It was a little over $500.00 to send my blood off to be tested in a special lab but they did find I had positive antibodies. You might want to look into this web page it has a lot of great info on antibodies with IVF -it explains what the cause and treatment is. http://sharedjourney.com/define/ana.html
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10/17/2011 8:06 PM
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Cntrygirl- 13 follicles is wonderful! That is something you should be very happy about. I only had about 5 on my first ultrasound and was really worried, they increased my stim meds, and they were still able to retrieve 10 eggs. So, be very glad, sounds like you're starting out nicely.
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10/17/2011 6:28 PM
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I had my first follicle ultrasound and blood test for this cycle today {day 5 of stim. meds}. I had 13 follicles that measured between 9-11 mm. The nurse called and said that my doc wanted me to stay on the same dosage and come back Wednesday. Is 13 follicles good for right now? She said there were more smaller ones, too. She also said that they like to see the follicles at 18-22mm...is that similar to what you've been told? Hope everyone is having a great Monday!! <3
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10/17/2011 10:41 AM
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Lavonda- Ask your doctor to do a repeat loss blood panel. It is a blood test that tests like 15 or so different things and then you will know if you have any clotting factors that would benefit from heparin.
Good luck
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10/17/2011 10:38 AM
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I have a question for those of you who had failed cycles then added heparin...
Tomorrow I go back to see my RE to discuss my failed cycle. I would like to have some information so maybe I can talk about that possibility. Are there tests to determine if heparin could be beneficial? Anything you gals can tell me would be helpful.
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10/16/2011 12:03 PM
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NWells - I will promise to consider the Lupron Depo shots if it comes to that...it just didn't feel right at the time.
lkerce - Woo hoo! Praying your numbers keep going up!!
Shots for me are going well. I've decided that if I ever become diabetic that I will totally be fine with giving myself insulin shots! The Menopur does burn a little when I do that shot, but it is bearable! Tomorrow morning I go for blood tests and ultrasound. Anxious to hear how the stim. meds are working and when/if we'll be able to do a retrieval.
Hope everyone had a great weekend!
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10/15/2011 11:35 AM
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Hey everyone. I went back to the Dr. this morning to have another beta and everything went well. It went from 117 to 300. I go back again Wednesday for another. Fingers crossed and prayers that everything continues to progress. I am still cramping every now and then. Dr. still assures me that it is the ovaries trying to get back to normal size and as long as I am not bleeding and numbers are going up, that it is a good sign. Guess all I can do is listen, but it is still very hard not the worry. Hope you all have a great weekend.
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10/13/2011 8:55 PM
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Hi ladies. Welcome to all of the newcomers! I just wanted to check-in and say hi...it has been forever since I posted, but i read your posts every week. I am in the home stretch of my pregnancy with only 2 weeks until my due date. We decided to not find out what we are having and I am soooo anxious to hold my little one. After trying for 6 years, I thought this day would never come...
Good luck!! Keep your faith!!
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10/12/2011 10:09 PM
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cntrygirl- I wish you luck and if it comes down to it the Lupron depo is what I am on and it isn't that bad. i put if off as long as I could, and finally just did it and we got preg. It ended in m/C but we got preg so if you docs recommend it again I say go for it!!!!
Ik- (ur nickname)- congrats!!!!!! continue to relax and take it easy 117 is a good # guess those cramps meant something good!!!! LOL!!!!
have a good night ,sleep tight ladies!!! I am thinking of you all!!!
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10/12/2011 7:02 PM
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lkerce - YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was anxiously awaiting your outcome!! That is SO exciting! Praying that everything will go well at your next appointment, too!!!
tiff719, NWells and WELBD - Thanks for the encouragement and it is nice to know that those who have endometriosis can be successful with IVF. My endometriosis history is that I've always had awful periods/cramps. When I was younger I would stay home at least one day with cramps so bad that they made me throw up. I've been on different birth controls since I was 16 for the cramps. My aunt (on my mother's side) has endo. too and was never able to have her own children (they decided not to do IVF) and now have two adopted children. I always felt like I was going to be just like here, even though I was never diagnosed with endometriosis until about a year ago. The way we found out is that I went for my yearly exam and was telling my GYNO about pain during intercourse, bad cramps, and that we had been trying to get pregnant for about 6 months at that point. She had my husband do his test first to make sure it wasn't a male factor and when that test came back fine she decided to have me do a laparoscopy. That is when she found the endometriosis. I've seen where others say that they are different stages or levels but I've never heard my doctor describe it that way, so I'm not sure how sever mine is. She did say that I have it on my bladder and some other organs. She also said that when she tried to shoot the die through my tubes that my right side was somewhat blocked. After my surgery she wanted to put me on the Lupron Depro shots for 6 months. I was uncomfortable with that and decided to get another opinion. My other doctor decided to put me on Clomid (which we did for 5 months) and then sent me to my specialist when that didn't work. We just started seeing the specialist in August. That's my story.
I'm starting my Folistem shots in the morning and then tomorrow evening another one with my Menopur and Lupron! We have Friday off (I work at a school), so I will have a long weekend! So looking forward to it!!
I've only been with this group for a few days, but I already feel like it has helped me out so much! Thanks and prayers to all of you lovely ladies!
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10/12/2011 4:49 PM
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lkerce - Congratulations...that's awesome news!!!! Remember to still take easy, our dr recommended very low activity until 10 weeks (including no intimate relations). Take care keep doing your shots!!!!
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10/12/2011 3:57 PM
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Good news! BFP!!!! Dr. called and was pleased with my levels 117. She is having the nurse call me back with what day to come in (either fri or sat) for more blood work. Keep praying! =)
We are really excited b\c I was convinced it did not work with all the cramping I was having. Dr. assures that it is normal just as long as I am not bleeding.
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10/12/2011 12:39 PM
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hello ladies
Better mood today, all the crying I did yesterday (and wine) cleared my head, let me put things is a different perspective and I can now move on. We reviewed this new procedure that we have to do for the DNA fragmentation sample. We are going to start next week. Then it will be just waiting the results and we will take it from there. I know we got preg once so I feel we will be fine, but we just have to rule it out. SO girls I am good!!!! New RE will be good, he is looking for more answers. My old RE is going to keep in touch I was with her for 3 years, so even if we get preg with this new doc, I still feel she helped it happen too!!!
cntrygirl- yup I have endometriosis and they question agnamiosis as well and because they can't do and MRI on me (metal in my head) that is why I am on the Lupron shots. I take one a month for about 3 months it quiets my whole system down and then they kick start me with an IVF cycle. So I know all about it, had the laparoscopy surgery two years ago (this Nov).
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10/11/2011 9:48 PM
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Hello again,
Cntrygirl: I had success with my first IVF, unfortunately it ended in miscarriage. But I did get pregnant. I am 39 yrs old, we've been trying for 2 1/2 years, 2 failed IUI's, 1 successful IVF, but m/c and failed 2nd IVF. Last year I was diagnosed with Sever Endometriosis, had laparoscopic surgery and also removed a large fibroid. So yes, there are people on here with it. What is your history with endometriosis?
Lkierce: Good luck to you. Try to remain as relaxed as you can.
NWells: I envy your time in Vermont, it must have been beautiful! I totally get the whole "not ready to go there, yet" with the whole donor issue. Some people close to me have begun to mention the whole "donor" idea, and I sometimes find I judge myself because I think how picky I am being. However, I have learned to just deal with each step as it comes. Change is good, so hope your new RE is the answer.
My RE called today to check-in since I got the failed 2nd IVF result last week. He said, we just gotta keep swimming. I follow up this week to see what our next step is. I appreciated his calling, but tears seem to come quite easily these days, but I just need to feel it.
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10/11/2011 9:19 PM
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Cntrygrl, I was successful my first try at IVF... In 2004/2005 I had two miscarriages and learned from genetics testing that I had MTHFR (clotting issues) and that my body is unable to process and break down vitamin B and folic acid. In late 2005 I got pregnant again and had a baby boy who is now 5. Soon after, we tried again and lost two more babies to miscarriage. After 2 years of trying, including 4 failed IUI's and several rounds of clomid we decided to try IVF.... We put back three eggs and one took... My RE was extremely cautious when my beta came back positive, seeing as the number was only at 66. But it continued to double and 7 months later (yes he came early), my second son was born and is two months away from turning 2....
I had two eggs left, but they did not make it to freezing stage... I am amazed by the ladies in this forum everyday. their stories and experiences often move me to tears. Ive never "seen" a stronger group of women together. Good luck, keep the faith....
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10/11/2011 8:13 PM
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lkerce - Prayers for you tomorrow!
mrsevilsizer - Best of luck to you with the donor eggs! I think that I would be SUPER picky when it came to choosing, so I totaly understand that! I look forward to hearing how everything goes for you.
NWells - Thanks so much for the welcome. I know it will help having all of you ladies who have been through these things that I will now be going through. I wish you the best of luck with your new RE. I've always heard that it's good to be proactive with your health care, you're doing the right thing.
I'm wondering how many people are successful on their first IVF attempt? I'm also wondering if there is anyone on here that also has endometriosis.
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10/11/2011 1:00 PM
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Ladies, hope everyone had a great weekend!!! I traveled to my husband's family cabin in VT- when I say cabin I mean cabin, small, runs off a generator, no running water and an out house that you use for the bathroom- trust me the woods is just as good!!! We had fun though!!! I had yesterday off and I decorated my outside for fall.
Today has started off very emotional!!! I had my appointment this AM- I got my second Lupron shot, said good by to my old RE (cried) and said hello to my new one. So I have a New RE, with a new plan, and new tests!!! They say a change is good, just taking everything in sent me crying!!!! SO my plan is now..... Hubby will be doing a Sperm Fragmentation test, we have to order the materials and GOD I hope it comes back negative because if it doesn't we need to move on with donor sperm. I know that are so many of you who have ventured down that road but right now I just can accept that route yet. Not to mention there was a show on yesterday regarding black market donors and also questioning if the donor has a right to know who the child is and such it made me sick to my stomach. Then after retrieval and our embryos are growing on the 3rd day they are going to do P.G.S- basically doing a biopsy of the embryo to see why they are not growing right. He explained some numbers to me about being 7%-10% chance of testing an embryo and the biopsy part being abnormal but the rest of the embryo being fine, and vise versa- and he said the embryo will still continue to grow. At least we will have some clue as to why the are not growing. Then the third and final option is to take my eggs, do 4 with a donor sperm and they rest with my husbands to rule out the egg. He threw all this at me, threw out some encouraging words said we have to find answers before we move forward. I will just say, he knows what he is doing!!!! So I will get my third Lupron shot on 11/11, and my baseline appt is for 11/30. So we will move forward in Dec, hopefully with my husbands sperm!!!! SO yeah that is where I am!!!!! I left the office, finding my self asking why, crying and praying all at the same time!!!! I was almost Begging for everything to be ok and for it to work this time!!!!
Cntrygirl- welcome I wish you the best as you begin your first IVF- it is emotional try to remain strong. Although as you can see you will have your moments of weakness and that is when you look to the ladies here to pick you back up and put you on your feet again so you can move forward!!!!
Ikerce- Will be thinking of you tomorrow!!! try to rest easy and not think of things, I know easier said than done!!!
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10/11/2011 11:16 AM
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Looks like we have a lot of new comers on here. Good luck to you all I things work out for the best!!
As for me, my husband and I have made the decision to look into donor eggs. The doctors think that IVM, although may work, has a very low success rate. They also can't find any cases like mine that have actually done IVM. Our lives are stressful enough with my husband being a full time med student that we feel egg donation is our best choice. I am really excited to get this process started, it's just really hard finding the right donor. I have become very picky, and I am sure if I saw someone with all my medical issues I wouldn't even choose myself. haha I am really hoping this is successful for us!
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10/11/2011 9:04 AM
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The big day is tomorrow! If I can make it through today & then through tomorrow until the phone call I will be doing good.
I'm worried b\c I am still getting AF cramps & sometimes they are painful. The past 2 nights I have not been sleeping good & I have been waking up with cramps, but still not bleeding.
I hope & pray this IVF cycle worked for me even though it is so hard to have positive thoughts with all the cramping going one! =(
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10/10/2011 8:29 PM
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lkerce - Thanks so much for responding. Prayers for you while you are anxiously waiting!
I had my tests today and we have been given the all clear and ready to go! I start my FSH shots on Thursday. I want to feel so excited but I am also trying to be guarded. I'll go back next Monday so they can check my levels, etc. again.
I hope that everyone is having a great week.
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10/10/2011 11:29 AM
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Cntrygrl- I am currently in my 2ww and go for my beta on Wedneday to see if I am pregnent. This is also my 1st go-round with IVF. I have to say that the worst part of it all is the 2ww. I have worried myself to death with every pain or twinge that I notice in my body since my transfer.
I have never liked needles\shots, but to my surprise they haven't been bad at all. When you get to where you have to start your progesterone shots make sure you put an ice pack on your hip for about 10-15min. prior and then heat a damp wash cloth for about 30 sec. and use it to massage the place where you got the shot. I can barely feel them when I do that and have not been to terribly sore from it. Those were the shots I dreaded most!
Other than it being an emotional roller coaster, the IVF process hasn't been that bad. Good luck to you!
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10/9/2011 6:13 PM
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Hello everyone! Newbie here...trying to gain strength and courage from all of your posts. We are currently starting our first attempt at IVF after TTC for almost 3 years now. I was diagnosed with endometriosis last Fall. Been through the Clomid and now on to IVF. I've been doing my Lupron shots for the past two weeks and have an appointment tomorrow to check levels/have ultrasound to see if I can start my FSH shots this week. Any tips suggestions? Honestly all of your posts have helped me out so much already.
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10/7/2011 10:08 PM
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nwells - oh no!!!!!!!!!! the "keep the faith message was for welbd, not you!!! As u are right, you inspire all of us evryday!!!
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10/7/2011 9:59 AM
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NWells- They did the blood work to make sure I am getting the right amount of Prog. from the shot & estrogen from the pill. I will not get anymore b\w until next Wed. for the pregnancy test. =)
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10/7/2011 7:49 AM
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DLM- I have not lost faith by any means- if there is anyone on this forum how has faith it would be me seeing I have been doing this for over 3 years and I keep trucking through!!! my post was to tell the girls to have faith and believe!!!! As I have done during this whole difficult process.
Speaking of faith I feel as though daily our faith is tested...... Yesterday one of my past students came in to see me, she was at Keene state in NH and I was so proud of all she has accomplished. She was going to be a RA at school. Well when she returned in May she got pregnant. So I asked her about the father and if she was with him, she said she was never with him they were good friends and she didn't want a relationship because she was going back to school,so they were "friends with benefits", she is not with the father nor does she plan to be with him. Then she proceeds to tell me that another one of my students who had a baby already, whom she can barley take care of, she isn't with the baby's father any more, and she thinks she may be pregnant again by yes a "friends with benefits". Seriously, really, come on now!!!! I left work in such a depressed mood only to hear on the radio on my way home that a women in Penn, sold her baby to a friend for $15k because she wanted to take her other two kids to Disney, and she said she already had to kids and didn't want the baby....... AHHHHHHHH!!! I started to scream in my car. FIY she was arrested and so was the friend. SO as I am thinking of all of this and getting angry and asking why, I went home took a very long walk with my dog, came home showered and read my Pregnancy and conception prayer and realized that our faith is test every day and we have to keep faith, we have to Believe. We can ask why as much as we want but this is where we are for what ever reason, and we just have to move forward with the Belief that it will happen. It has for so many of the women on this forum and I know it will for me. I will be a mom some how some way!!!!!
Ikerce- you have to relax, stress is not good. YOu good for blood work still- interesting.... Anyway don't think into it all to much it is still to soon for anything.
I posted a Pregnancy spell on here a few months back, and I will post the pregnancy prayer if there is anyone who would like it!!!!
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10/5/2011 9:01 PM
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TTCMARCH and WELLS - I'm sorry to hear that you've lost faith...all those feelings are completely natural, but I pray that you will regain faith and strenght and know that God is looking over all of us, pray to him with an open heart and you will see his power at work. I know this process is very draining financially for those of us who have to pay out of pocket, but I will tell you, a couple of years ago, I did not know how I was going to pay my credit card bills, and this year, we somehow, were able to come up with almost $30k, the price tag for our two cycles, cash!!!.
Don't lose faith, God wors in misterious ways, you'll see!!!
lkerce - try to relax(easier said than done, I know) but really, try to keep your mind occupy on other things...let the embies make their way to implatantion. Everything is going to be ok.
jc - thinking of you and praying that your ultrasound brings good news!!!!
Lavonda - hope u are feeling better!!!!
nwells - I never get tired of saying what an inspiration and a source of strenght you are to all of us, God bless you and best wishes, from the heart, for a successful cycle!!!
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10/5/2011 2:26 PM
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Went to the Dr. today, so that they could check my estrogen and progesterone levels. I had my ET last Friday (9\30), so I am now 5 days in. Still not feeling any different. Just the same cramps from ER and sore breasts, which I've had pretty much the whole process and I had an upset stomach Monday. Dr. office called a few minutes ago to tell me my levels looked good and to stay with same medicine protocol ----- prog. shot every evening and estrogen 2x a day.
It is SO hard not to read into EVERYTHING about my body right now. One minute I'm thinking OK I think I may be pregnant and the next minute I am thinking there is no way b\c I should feel something. I have read past posts on here and I know that it is normal not to feel anything this early, but it is so hard not too. I may just drive myself, & my husband, CrAzY until next Wednesday 10\12 when we find out if IVF worked for us. Prayers please! =)
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10/5/2011 2:04 PM
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Afternoon ladies!!!
Hope all is well I am waiting on hold at Caremark to order my next dose of Lupron, I go next Tuesday for shot # 2 and figure out when we begin!!!!
To our new ladies TTC and WEL, if you guys have been reading my posts you know I totally understand how you both feel. I have been there, hearing that first BFN is so hard, try hearing it 3 times. Try hearing on #4 you are pregnant and at 8 weeks losing the baby. Ladies I know how you feel and what your both going through. We started our journey 3 years ago in that time my Brother has had 2 kids and My sister has had two as well, My nephew Justin turned 3 on 9/27, we went for our first IUI 2weeks before he was born. I work as a high school counselor, I ask God why ALL THE TIME!!!!!! teenager having Kids, and they have no idea what is going on!!!! Trust me I know how you both feel. I also know that the feelings are temporary, you are going to wake up one day and say OK lets go again. You are going to find your faith again, and you are going to BELIEVE!!! Hey you can always get a Kokapili tattooed on yourself !! LOL after our m/c that is what I did, figured I needed something to believe in!!! Ladies all I can say is be strong!!! The whole process is emotionally and physically draining, but we have to stay strong!!! starting #6 in a month!!!
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10/5/2011 11:58 AM
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Lavonda, I feel for you! My husband and I just had our first cycle- unsuccessful. I only had 6 follicles from one ovary, the other ovary produced nothing at all. Then when they went in to retrieve the eggs, they only got 2. I was devastated and since we were doing ICSI I thought we would end up with nothing. We got lucky and had 2 beautiful embryos on the day of transfer. I experienced the same feelings you did the 2-3 days leading up to our test, I felt really negative about it and really down. Started spotting 2 days before the scheduled test, went in the next day and got our BFN.
I feel the same way you do. I feel like I let my husband down and I feel terrible that I can't give him this thing that we both want so badly, that seems to come so easily for some people. I cried all night long and a week and a half later I still find myself fighting back tears more often than not.
People keep saying to have faith, but I have lost all my faith after this. We came home with our negative test results to see the girl across the street who's 8 months pregnant standing outside smoking a cigarette (which is basically all she does all day). What kind of god would give a baby to her (her 3rd!) and not give a baby to my husband and me? We both prayed and had so many people praying for us and apparently no one listened.
We are committed to trying again, although it's going to take a while for us to save the money to pay for it. But I have absolutely no hope that it will work. Like you, Lavonda, I was so sure it was going to work the first time. Once we found out we had 2 fertilized embryos we thought we were home free. I don't know how to come back from this. It's just crushing. I'm sorry you're going through it. Maybe we'll both have more success next time!
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10/4/2011 6:38 PM
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Welbed-hang in there! If you can afford another cycle, definitely try again. Many times after one IVF, the doctors know your cycle and can better predict what can and can't work.
Some good news...one of my best friend's donated her eggs to her cousin who tried for 7 years to have a baby. Her RE encouraged her to get donated eggs, but she didn't want just anyone's eggs so she asked her cousin She gave birth to a healthy little boy today!
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10/3/2011 9:42 PM
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Thank you, JZ. I'm sure we won't give up, it's these set-backs that can certainly get one down. A little time will help heal, but can certainly bring you down at times.
Thank you.
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10/3/2011 8:53 PM
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Wel-
I'm so sorry for you...I know it's expensive and emotionally draining, but I hope you don't give up on your dream! I'll be praying for you!
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10/3/2011 4:57 PM
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Hello, I've been on the forum for some time as a viewer only. However, I have recently had another devastating blow and I just feel like it's time I should reach out a bit. I am 39 yrs old, never given birth &I have just finished my second fresh IVF cycle....unsuccessfully. We were able to get pregnant with our first cycle in 5/11, however ended in m/c after 7 weeks. I had a D&C because I just didn't want to wait for the passing, not thinking about the fact that I would have another $2,500 hospital bill from that, on top of the $14K we had spent on meds & the cycle.
I then began our second cycle in 8/11 and we just finished our 2ww where my beta was initially 20, then decreased to 14 today, so very upset. Once again, no baby.
What has been most difficult is that our close family members just gave birth to a girl this past weekend, the day I had my first beta, and they named her the name I wanted to use for a girl. It is absolutely heartbreaking! I just feel as if I could crawl in a hole and stay there!
Have you ever just felt like having a child was just so far out of reach and hopeless? What adds to the frustration is, I am an RN in the OB area and it is so frustrating to see people having children on a daily basis and thinking, I'm really not sure if I will ever have this opportunity in my life and I just don't know how to deal with it!
We do have 2 frozen embryos from this last IVF cycle but I just can't seem to get any positive feelings about any of it. They were of lesser quality than the ones they recently transferred, so I just feel so pessimistic about it all.
I remember saying when all this began that I was not going to put us in financial ruin over this and that I could not see spending $30K on something like this and we have surpassed it at this point. I just wish that we were able to have the stress lifted from our lives and that insurance would cover it, but everything is out-of-pocket. What a devastating thing to live with.
Thanks for listening. Good luck to those who are awaiting news. I hope success is in your future.
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10/3/2011 4:04 PM
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nwells & mblackie- Thank you both so much! I am glad to know that this is completely normal, so now maybe I can quit freaking out =)
Today the cramps aren't bad, but I have had an upset stomach (running to the bathroom). I think it must be from the medicines.
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10/3/2011 10:04 AM
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Happy Monday!!!
Reba was AWESOME- I was a little disappointed though she only played for a hour and 15 min :o(!!! I thought she would go a little longer, but it was the Big E and the Fair closed around 9:30. It was still Great!!!!
Nothing new here, but from reading I see Ikerce you had your ET- YES Cramping totally normal!!!! Alot of it has to do with your swollen ovaries, at this point now if I don't have the cramps I worry. DOn't think to much into it, the time I got pregnant I was so relaxed and just rolled with the 2ww, I had the cramps, my chest KILLED, but it does anyway so I didn't think anything of it. My last IVF, I had the cramps but my chest hurt the first couple of days and then they didn't hurt anymore, I never bled until the night before my blood test but I just knew that it didn't work. Try not to look for signs, we all do it so it is easier said then done. But really try not to dwell on it all!!! We are with you!!!!
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10/3/2011 9:33 AM
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lkerce-try not to read into things. I didn't "feel" pregnant until I was 7-8 weeks along or so. Literally I didn't get sick until then, I didn't have any weird cravings, I wasn't tired, and my boobs never hurt until the end of my pregnancy. I don't know if I was scared to get my hopes up after 3 failed IUI's or what, but I never "felt" pregnant until 7 or 8 weeks. Good luck! I'll be praying for you.
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