12/27/2011 4:49 PM
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Hello ladies
I took another test yesterday AM (which would have been my blood work) and it was again negative. So I stopped my progesterone, I guess just trying to figure out one way or the other. Well Myrtle showed her evil little head this AM, so as I am sitting there and they are taking my blood, I am having cramps and thinking this is a waist of time. So they will call me tomorrow to tell me what I already knew. I was holding on to it being a false neg, up until yesterday when I really stared to show signs of myrtle, It wasn't spotting anymore. This whole thing is very hard for me, I put all my faith into this cycle, I prayed more then I ever had. Now it is facing our sperm and Egg issue, and figuring out if there is any way to help it and if not well then we need to face other options and I think right now that's the HARDEST thing for me right now!!! I am going to be 37, never in my life did i think this is were I would be!!! :'(.
I like the book Idea... Maybe I should look into that Almost like a self help book for women who are going through all this sh*(&^..... I just have to tell my story huh!!! LOL!! maybe one day if we have a happy ending i will look in to the possibility.
Thank you ladies don't know where I would be with out all of you!!!! #6 HA tarot card lied!!!
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12/26/2011 11:31 AM
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Wishing that everyone had a very Merry Christmas and best wishes for a wonderful New Year!!!!
Nwells - I've been thinking of you and praying that it is a false negative!!!!
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12/25/2011 8:49 AM
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Merry Christmas all - may 2012 be everything you hope for.....
NWells - Merry Christmas to you - It sounds like you are letting go of that possible positive result, though I still pray for a Christmas miracle for you.... I'm so glad you have such wonderful support to help you get through all this - Life just does not seem fair sometimes - this is not fair!! and my heart breaks for you - I just have to beieve that one day you and your DH will be holding your baby in your arms and whether though pregnancy or adoption, everything you have gone through will have led you to your beautiful baby that was meant to be for you. If IVF didn't work for us we were going to adopt - like you my DH wasn't quite there, but I lke to think he would have come around..... Last week we met my DH's cousin, with her husband and their two beautiful sweet adopted girls from Korea - what a wonderful happy family they are! How ever you and your DH go forward we'll look forward to going on the ride with you - sharing your diffucult journey in such a positive and enthusiastic way has helped so many of us get through the hardest moments - maybe you should write a book!! You're a natural writer and half of it is already written on this forum!! I'm still hoping for a possible positive for you though...... this cycle's not over yet......
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12/24/2011 10:25 PM
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Merry Christmas EVE!!! and Merry Christmas because i don't think I will be on here tomorrow!!!
SO ladies, my 1st POAS was bfn- I was pretty much prepared to see it so it wasn't that much of a blow!!!! My sister was with me and very supportive. We went to My mom in laws for christmas eve as we always do, such a great time and great memories!!!! Of course there were people there who had to throw in there two sense. So now my husband is like I don't think we are out of the woods yet, so and so took a test and it was neg, she was bleeding and two week later she didn't feel right and she was actually preg. I told him that I know so many people who have been bleeding and actually been preg, just for me the two don't go together!! I am going to take another on Monday the day i am supposed to go for my test, but Yale is shut down and so are quest labs i have to wait till Tuesday. Ladies not going lie, I had a rough day so I had some wine tonight, ANNND some Bushmills shots...... I needed to relax and lets just say that did the trick!! LOL.... I am having tea now and writing while my husband wraps my presents in the living room. We talked about adoption on the way home tonight, but he said he isn't willing to give up tring on our own yet but he doesn't like seeing me take all those extra hormones and such. We both want to adopt a baby, but he isn't sure he is ready yet. Well if we want to go through DCF we need to go through an application process and I think We may just start that in the new year. IF we have that done and we get on a list by the time we come up for a baby I think Michael will be ready. He even said lets get that stuff out of the way. R we done w IVF I don't know.....
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12/24/2011 9:33 PM
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Merry Christmas to all ! And my the new year bring us us the blessings we are praying for.
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12/23/2011 9:54 PM
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NWells it has been a while since I have posted anything but have been catching up and I am cheering you on like the rest out there!! Hoping and praying this is the one!!! Please keep us posted and hoping you have a great news to tell us soon!!! Hang in there!!
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12/23/2011 9:44 PM
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It's torturous - the cramps and spotting could easily be a sign of multiples though - praying for you xx
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12/23/2011 9:41 PM
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Goodnight NWells - hope you get some sleep - keep us posted....
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12/23/2011 9:39 PM
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There was bright red blood when I put progesterone in it is getting harder for me 2 stay positive because 5 out of 6 times bleedin b4 my test meant bfn. the time I got pregnant I didn't spot bleed or anything until a week after my blood test, I'm tryin SOOOO hard 2 Believe right now. Night ladies hopefully things turn around.
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12/23/2011 8:48 PM
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Tcr thank u that is what it is like clear one minute pink the next. I am irritated down there 2 & I have cramps. My nerves r a mess & I'm exhausted. I may test tmrw just 2 ease my mind I know it may be 2 early but if they r there I should have sm sort of sign right???? Oui! This sucks. I'm heading 2 bed! Thanks
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12/23/2011 7:57 PM
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NWells - for me the spotting was on and off for the first 6 weeks - it's hard to remember how it was at the begining exactly now, but I do know I was very nervous of that first blood test because I had been spotting - it wasn't constant like a period but pink one moment and clear the next - then pink again - I was told to rest whenever I spotted - also I had to stop using the inserts when I spotted as the RE thought they could be causing the bleeding- irritation... good luck good luck - I hope you have some twins in there!! heart pounding could definitely be a symptom - I had that a lot during the first half of my pregnancy......
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12/23/2011 6:57 PM
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Ladies I need some one to tell me, Tcr- when you bled how much was it and how long did your implant bleeding last.... I had the pinkness on Wed, then when I put the applicator in it was clean, then just now the pink is back, I am ok but I want to know is the attachment bleeding constant or is it random over a couple of days? See I never had implant bleeding, I always just had the pink and it meant I wasn't peg. Then the last two times I did this (on the Lupron) I didn't bleed at all one time I was peg and the other I started with the pink the night before my blood work. I don't 'know what to think, my chest is kind of sore, but not really, and then my cramps are on an off... entry girl you have multiples how did you feel, I know everyone is different but I need someone to tell me maybe I have multiples and that is why I am spotting.
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12/22/2011 9:39 PM
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NWells- hang in there - to pee or not to pee - that really is the question!! If it works and shows up then you save yourself two entire days of stress, worry and misery - but if it's not positive or just too early to tell then of course that stress and worry becomes worse.... For me I P'dOAS every single day after the transfer so I would know exactly when the trigger shot was out of my system and when it could mean a real positive - I got the real positive three days before my blood test was due - There was no way I could have waited until the test at the clinic - I would have lost my mind - just needed to know either way! I think when the cycle falls on a holiday it becomes even harder - and after 6 times I think most of us would barely be standing! We're with you NWells - however you go about facing the results we're here rooting for you!
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12/22/2011 9:14 AM
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I am breathing, deep breaths.... With my history bleeding is bad..... my discharge on the pad was a browish pink last night and then it was kind of pinkish brown for the next two wipes(which is the endometrin mixing with the blood) but when I put in my endometrin it was clear, and then this AM clear again. Seriously I fell a lseep with my cross in my hand, my dog again on top of me, I woke with my heart racing and my stomach so sick, like that nervous sick around 4:30, I still feel that way now. Ladies I can't even explain to you, this cycle is so far the worst one for me, the thought of it not working sends me into a whirl wind of tears and depression, my heart sinks... Granted my thoughts are more that it worked, but I am SOOOO scared to totally grasp on to that thought. I think it is the time of year too, such a joyous happy time you just pray the Lord and Santa will give us what we want for Christmas, even though we will find out three days after. I think that is part of it to, I have to wait two extra days to find out. My office is closed so I have to go to a quest lab on Tuesday and I won't find out until the Wed, the longest 24 hours of my life. LAdies should I POAS on Christmas day? I am scared if + it would be an amazing day if not I will be depressed. But I am going to dwell on it!! This BLOWS!!!!!
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12/22/2011 12:29 AM
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NWells - just breathe - your embies are 10 days old right now - that's exactly when I started spotting when it worked for us - it could well be some implantation bleeding - it's so hard but try not to read too much into it - we are all sending prayers out into the universe for you - you have 4 in there which gives you such a wonderful chance - try to breathe and take it as easy as you possibly can xx
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12/21/2011 9:30 PM
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Ladies some one tell me when in this process does attachment bleeding happen???? I am one week post transfer, and with my past except the last two cycles i bled one week after transfer- WELL my discharge is now pink... I am not doing well at all right now. This is freaking bullshit and I am so sick of this!!!!
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12/21/2011 9:25 AM
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Hello ladies,
Hope the Christmas shopping season is treating you well.... "Wouldn't be the shopping season if the stores weren't any Hooter, i mean Hotter then they are" LOL!!!!!! Probably one of the best Christmas movies every!!! LOL!!!
SO I am one week post transfer.... And I have no IDEA were I am right now. I think I am coming down with a cold, my glands hurt, and I am extremely winded, last night I got light headed, when I was standing up and walking around. My husband made me sit down and do nothing. Which for me was hard. I have so much to do and not stressing out about it is so hard. I need my house vacuumed SO bad and I won't do it so I am on my husband to do it, and he gets an attitude... Yeah he doesn't realized just how much I do around the house until I can't do anything. So as of today, my chest is sore, but nothing unusual, cramping again but more like Myrtle cramps- Ladies you probably think I am nuts but the cramps from the ovaries and transfer are so much different than normal period cramps, well right now I have the period cramps so I have no idea. Last night I fell asleep feeling like I am pregnant, I was exhausted, my chest killed and my 85 pound dog fell asleep basically lying on top of me with his head on my head, don't think he could have gotten any closer to me!!!! But I woke this am feeling totally different. AHHHH!!!! This BLOWS!! Thank God I have this forum to vent on though, I think I would lose my mind if I didn't have you all!!!!
To quote Mablackie and welbd, INFERTILITY SUCKS!!!!
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12/20/2011 4:13 PM
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Damn straight! Infertility does suck!
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12/20/2011 10:28 AM
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Sorry, that post was supposed to go NWells.
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12/20/2011 8:15 AM
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WellBD, try not to look into things too deep! I know it's hard, but everyone's body is different. After my IVF cycle where I got pregnant with my twins, I cramped, but that was it. No "implantation bleeding", my breasts never hurt, no pregnancy signs at all! Honestly, I didn't feel pregnant until I was 7 or 8 weeks along, then I started to feel nauseus.
So try to think positive and not read into every little thing you feel (or don't feel). I have a good feeling about this cycle for you.
Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!
As for us, we are trying for # 3. We've been trying on our own for 6 months with no luck. So now we are trying the old ovulation kit and crinone for a couple months. If this doesn't work (which I don't have faith that it will), then we are going to try 1 or 2 FET cycles. We don't think we'll do more then 2 because of the cost. We would completely have gone into dept to have 2 kids, but since we have our twins, I can't justify spending another $40,000 on another baby. The weird thing is I didn't think I would be as disappointed if I didn't get pregnant since I have two kids, but I have the same feelings I had before. Everyone is having their 2nd or 3rd child and it seems to be taking forever for us again. Infertility sucks!
Hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!
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12/19/2011 9:23 AM
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Hello ladies,
I am trying SOOO hard not to read in to anything. Last night I couldn't fall asleep because my mind was turning. So I really don't have cramps anymore, they kind of ended yesterday, if I move around to much or am more active then I should be I do cramp up but that is it. I will occasionally get a dull Myrtle Ache though which has me thinking negative. My breast hurt but not that bad, my nips though KILL but all side effect of the progesterone. Yesterday my heart was racing all day and I felt sick all day, I would feel icky, then get hungry, then I would eat and then feel sick again. We went to a Christmas party and I think the food wasn't good and that is what upset my stomach. UGH!!! this whole thing sucks, you would think after 6 times I would be more relaxed, I think it has more to do with the fact that when we got Pregnant I didn't know what the signs meant so I couldn't look into them, now knowing the minor signs I am trying so hard not to look into them and say OMG I think I am... That whole thought is so scary to face, I don't know if you all know what I mean. OUI!!!! So that is where I am right now, still praying hard and hoping for the best Christmas gift my husband and I will ever receive !!!! Technically I could POAS on Christmas AM- I don't know if I can get myself to do it though.
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12/18/2011 5:09 PM
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Lavonda....the embryos do not take long to unthaw. They will unthaw them early the morning of your FET and watch them to see that they are continuing to grow. If they are not and you have additional frozens to choose from, they would unthaw a second batch and you would proceed with your FET on the same day. It might be a bit later in the day, but it would be the same day.
Welbd.....sorry to hear about your cycle. I have had the phone call previously on the morning of an FET and been told not to come in. It is really hard to take especially after all of the hormones again. Hope your next attempt is successful for you.
NWells.....4....Wow! Hoping your new RE and new protocol turn out to be the magic combination for you! Will be eagerly looking for your updates.
Snowie....hope you are thoroughly enjoying your first Christmas with your precious baby girl!
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12/18/2011 3:21 PM
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Hello all. Please forgive me for the lack of posts. I dont check in very often these days. Im approaching this FET from a whole different angle. During my fresh cycle, I was totally wrapped up into the whole thing. It was all I thought about night and day. Now, my husband has to remind me to keep up with my calendar and take my shots. Im not getting excited about it. I hope it works this time... But if not, im wont let it get me down.
Im sorry to hear the news from welbd. And thst got me to wondering about mine. Does anyone know how long it takes to thaw the embryos? And if the 2 dont survive the thaw? Will they be anle to thaw a couple more? Or will I have to repeat the whole process over again?
Nwells! Transferred 4... Wow! Imagine if all four stick! That would be a handful.
I will add all of you to my prayer list.
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12/17/2011 12:07 PM
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OH my welbd-I am teary right now.... I hope you find peace of mind, a bottle of wine and a good cry usually does the trick for me, and the comfort of certain family members as well (usually me sister n law and my sister) they have to get their own bottle of wine though!!! LOL!!!!
As for me, I am so winded, not sure if its s because I have literally done nothing since Wed afternoon, but if I go up my stairs, and walk around longer than 5 minutes my heart starts racing and I want to collapse from exhaustion. Now it hasn't even been 72 hours yet so I know that if they are there still the symptoms wouldn't be kicking in that fast!!!! I am SOOOO Crampy, I move I cramp, granted my ovaries took a beating this time, 19 eggs, and i am sure they are swollen big time, but my whole nether region is just ick!!! I feel so BLA!!!! I am probably driving myself insane, but I where my believe pin, my aunt in law sent me up a cross that says just believe, and it has two dangles that say have faith and believe in the lord, I slept with it in my hands last night. I have a wish the pregnancy prayer every night. So lets hope it is all for a good cause, lets hope I am not over doing the whole thing!!!
That is where I stand at this point, lets hope in a few days i will have a better update... God I hope so!!!
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12/16/2011 6:25 PM
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Thanks, Snowie. I appreciate the words of support. I knew that a successful thaw wasn't guaranteed, but we were hoping at least one of the two would come through.......no such luck. Between two miscarriages and now this, 2011 hasn't been the most favorable of years. Hoping next year will be less depressing. So, my husband has been very supportive today and I went ahead and took the 1 valium pill the doctor dispensed to me to be used for the transfer in order to numb myself for a bit and sleep. Then a little comfort food for my spirits. We're hanging in there, but, of course, it just depends on the moment. I'm sure there are more tears left to be shed.
Thanks for listening, all.
NWells, perhaps you're the one that will pull out with some good news this month. Will be rooting for you!
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12/16/2011 8:18 AM
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I am so sorry to hear this welbd! I also had some not make a thaw and know how bad it sucks. I hope you are able to just relax and grieve today in peace. We are all here for you
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12/16/2011 7:52 AM
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Never mind all of the worrying....just got the call, they didn't survive the thaw.........Numb.......
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12/16/2011 6:57 AM
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Thank you, Snowie. I will certainly take your 2 cents worth. That eases my mind. AND, since my RE said the same, I feel a bit more at ease.
I'm getting ready to go in for the big transfer, hoping they come in the room saying they both survived the thaw and are able to put both back in. I've done what I can
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12/16/2011 6:42 AM
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welbd- here is my experience and 2 cents worth. when i switched re's last year my previous re had a strict 48 hour bed rest rule but my new one had ZERO bedrest. As a matter of fact he indicated its better to be active bc it keeps your blood flowing. So after my transfer this time i went to work and continued my day as normal. I even had sex during my 2ww. And as we know this is the one that got me my sweet baby girl.
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12/15/2011 8:49 PM
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Hope you're chillin NWells, and enjoying your down-time. Pamper yourself and just relax.
We're going in for the big transfer in the a.m. What do you ladies think? I have the transfer tomorrow and then of course take it easy for 2 days, but my family xmas has been planned for Saturday. Now, my RE said fine, all I have to do is ride in a car for an hour and I can lie down in the car, then sit at my parents for a couple of hours and ride back. Does that sound like too much? I kind of wish we would've schedule for Monday or Sunday so I didn't have to worry about it. Again, the RE says it's fine, but I can't help but wonder if I should just skip it, the family christmas, that is.
Always questioning myself when it comes to that stuff. Any thoughts from you all?
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12/14/2011 8:18 PM
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We put back 4... 2 4cell (almost 5) & 2 5 cells all were grade 2. But they were still growing so puttin them back was the best choice. Now let's hope they keep goin!!! I'm nervous we never put back embies this low before. They were alway 6-8 cells & the one time we had a 9 we got pg. I don't know what 2 think, but I went 2 church after & prayed & I'v been on the couch since, & will be for 2 days. So ill write with updates. OH my blood test is on the 27th, so I have a eww & 3day waitm. My office is closed so I have 2 go 2 quest lab so I won't have my results till the next day. OUI!!! Gonna be a LOOOONG holiday!!!!
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12/14/2011 7:25 PM
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Nwells - Thinking of you, praying that your transfer went well, and hoping that you are actually taking it easy!!!!
God bless you and your embies!!!!
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12/14/2011 11:35 AM
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Ok ladies I am @ the office... My RE called & said that 4 of our embies r still growin & knowin my hystory he would like 2 do a day 3 transfer, yes all 4!!!! So am waitin 2 go in nowm. Been very emotional this time, I am puttin so much faith into this cycle the thought of it not workin scares the hell out of me!!! So ladies I will keep u posted, I'm goin 4 acupuncture after this then home 2 watch movies & read 4 the next 2 days. My goal is 2 finish girl w the dragon tatt. Well almost time 2 go in... Later
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12/13/2011 11:57 AM
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NWells- Good luck with everything I hope it all works out for you!
As for me we had an egg donor picked out and she agreed to do our cycle then at the last minute quit contacting the donor agency and feriltiy clinic. Everytime the donor agency would speak with her she said she was still wiling to do it but never seemed to be able to turn in the paperwork required. It really delayed us and put us in the position to continue our search. We have a new donor now and she has already done a cycle in October. She had 29 eggs retrieved and 19 of them fertilized! I am so excited to get this process started and I am hoping with this donor we will have lots of embies to freeze!! In the end I think all this happened for a reason and we ended up with the donor that was meant for us!
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12/13/2011 11:34 AM
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hello ladies
So I am all over the place emotionally- AND I coudn't get out of here yesterday, I left about 20 min. early and I had to run a few errands which turned into a nightmare!!! then I got home and of course I am so anal and obsessive complusive that I couldn't sit down till the dishes were done. We had a light dinner,though so I didn't have to really cook. Tonight I have so much to do because If I go in tomorrow i need to have a few of the big things done that the HUBBY just won't do, well he will do it but half acess and I will have to do it again anyway so it is better just to do it myself. People tell me to get cleaning lady but I would probably follow her around and clean after her.. its my house I want it cleaned my way!!! My mom says I never relax, annnnnd I don't!!! Looking forward to bed rest though I can't get up and move around so i wont!! can't wait to read!!
SO ladies this is where I am at. SNowie sorry you got this already,
I am so frustrated with this stupid company in CA that is supposed to do our Chromosome screening (the biopsy) they want 3325.00 up front before they will even do the procedure. I have approval from my insurance CO that they will cover it, but they don't bill insurance. The insurance person at Yale contacted Erin there and spoke to her almost a month ago, when we sent our blood panels. She never contacted me or anything regarding a plan for us because we didn't have enough time to come up with 3325. I dont even have a credit card to put it on!!!! SO I call Friday and she says she sent an email to her higher ups to figure out if something could be done for us. The biopsy has to be done tomorrow, I just called she told me that no one is there, they don't bill insurance PERIOD and they wont be able to go through PGD testing. I asked what she asked for, how were they willing to help me and she didn't get my question, she said I will send and email telling them that you don't have the money and won't be going through the procedure, I said something about the insurance and she said she asked if they could come up with a payment plan for us, so I asked her to get back to me, if they approved for us to have a payment plan, that way we know that if we have to go through this again we will have the plan in place, SHE says oh well this would be for this special case only and you aren't having the procedure done now, we would need the money up front!! She was rude and pissed me off.
So she just called me back... They would need 1800 today and another 1800 in a month and then we would put in for reembursment . If I knew all this over a month ago it would have been doable, But with christmas and such I just don't know. I mean if we had to pay for all this IVF out of pocket my husband and I would have been done with all of this three years ago. I mean we just don't have the money to put up front, and come to think of it we don't even have enough balance on our credit cards to even cover it. I am not asking family, I can't. I am going to wait to hear what Yale suggests we do. I am guessing will just proceed with out the testing and hope that our Embies will shine through this time!!!
SO we have 11 embies that are where they are supposed be on day 2... we even have one at 5. But as always they thrive the first two days and then slow way down so tomorrow will be the determining factor. I am all over the place right now. I have acupuncture later and can't wait to just escape all this and relax..... wish they could do acupuncture on my embies!!!! LOL!!!!!
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12/13/2011 10:32 AM
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Nwells .....praying for your embies!
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12/12/2011 2:40 PM
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NWELLS - YOU SHOULD DEFINITELY BE HOME...TRY TO SATY POSITIVE, I WILL BE SAYING A PRAYER FOR YOU, YOUR EMBIES, AND YOUR HUBBIE...GOD BLESS YOU!!!
WELBD - YOUR EMBIES ARE GOING TO BE JUST FINE..I'VE HEARD THAT THE FROZEN PRESEVATION OF THE EMBIES IS VERY SAFE AND RELIABLE, MY PRAYERS TO YOUR FAMILY AS WELL!!!!
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12/12/2011 1:49 PM
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Bless your heart, NWells! You definitely should go home early today. So many eggs! That's wonderful! I hope they pleasantly surprise you after their fertilization and keep growing wonderfully and are even able to freeze some!
I totally understand the whole happy you're depressed...One nurse that I had after my first transfer said something to me that has stuck with me throughout this is that you have to look at every little step as a small victory. Easier said than done, I realize, believe me, but you know how whimsical this all is, this really could be THE ONE! So breathe, and take one second at a time. Now, I must follow that same advice.
My husband and I were discussing today how we will not know if our 2 embies survived the thaw possibly until we get to the clinic for the transfer. So we may very well be sitting in the room ready to go in for the transfer and then may not be able to even do that. How amazing the stress that we all go through. All we can do is try to remain positive while trying to remain cautious. What a way to live, huh? Hang in there everyone!
Keep us posted, NWells!
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12/12/2011 12:43 PM
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Hello all
I am so sore!!! using the bathroom has to be the most uncomfortable thing EVER!!!!!! This better be it because my body is immune to the happy drugs they give me and I felt most of it yesterday!!! SO they got 19 eggs, with that 16 where mature and 11 fertilized. I wait for tomorrow to here how they are doing. Still no word as to whether we are goign to be doing the Biopsy or not.... they have to work with us with some kind of payment arrangement or we can't do it. SO WELBD, if we don't dot he biopsy I will most likely go in on Wed for a day 3 transfer, unless our little embies are growing like mad.. BUT we never make it that far :o( I am so nervous if we do this biopsy thing because if that is the case then they will do the transfer on day 5 which will be Friday meaning you and I will be in the 2ww together!!! I pray this time our embryos will make it, that always seems to be our biggest issue. At this point I don't know what to think, I am so happy I am depressed, I have put so much Faith into this I don' t know what I will do if this doesn't happen. I know I can't think that way but the thought of begining so sure scares me, and I will fall so hard if this doesn't work!!!!
SO here I am, swollen ovaries and all just waiting to find out what is going to go down!!! I will keep you all posted. i think I am going to leave work early today, I need to go home and lie down.
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12/11/2011 1:19 PM
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Best of luck NWells! May you have lovely, mature eggs. Hope all goes well.
I have just taken my "trigger" shot for the FET. Really, it's only half of a normal dose. Essentially, my ovaries were out of commission due to the estrogen I've been taking, so I don't think I'll be releasing anything, just preparing for the transfer on Friday 12/16, that is, if my 2 embies survive the thaw. I am thinking positive thoughts and have doing the "Circle and Bloom" meditation program that I have read about online. I really like it because it has you visualize the process going on in your body. I am my own worst enemy during this process, always afraid it isn't gonna work and I think that negative energy does not help. Therefore, trying to fill myself with positive energy.
My only problem is I am dealing with a bit of a cold virus. My husband, so lovingly, shared it with me...crappy timing! Have any of you had any respiratory issues during a cycle? If so, were you able to take meds? Robitussin? Sudafed? I'm hoping I can nurse it enough in the next few days so it is a non-issue. Best wishes to all of us!
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12/11/2011 7:37 AM
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Mornin ladies,
Well I am @ Yale waiting for my ER, they called Friday 2 tell me that I'd be triggering that night, my ER is @ 845 we live an hour from Yale & had 2 be here an hour before. Ill keep u all posted as 2 the results. Ill be out of it the rst of today, so ill write tmrw!!!!
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12/10/2011 8:25 AM
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Nwells I just wanted to let you know im thinking of you. Hope all is well. Seems like things are progressing really nicely.Cant wait to celebrate a BFP with you.
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12/8/2011 8:20 PM
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NWells thanks for understanding. I'm sure glad I have this forum and you to talk to. Although the few people that know are very supportive they just don't understand not unless they have been through this which they haven't. So thank you so much for listening and being able to relate. It is hard on me because my sister in law is pregnant right now and lets just say she isn't that easy to get along with at times and I am happy for her but I just don't understand why good things keep happening to people like that. I need to have a different out look and attitude towards this and I'm trying just feels like when I'm almost there I here of someone else around me that gets to share the joy of becoming a mom. I hope one day it does happen to me. It is in God's hands...
I wish you the very best in your appt. Sounds like things are progressing very well. Keep me posted!!
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12/8/2011 3:00 PM
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hello ladies
Tomorrow I go in again, day 10, ovaries are feeling pretty large!!!! I have a lot of follicles by tomorrow I am sure I will have at least 10 over 18.... getting close!!! I wear my kokopili charm & Believe charm around my neck everyday, I just bought a pin with a snowman(which I love and collect) that says Believe!! I am starting to do the pregnancy spell and I will start saying the pregnancy and conception prayer tonight. I am putting all my faith in the Lord. Whewhoo!!!
Cntry girl I can not want to be in your shoes let me tell you!!!
Hopefilled- I hear you and you just become numb to it after a while, at first I use to cry every time I found out someone around me was pregnant.. Then you deal with the people who get pregnant and they don't tell you because they feel bad so they keep it from you and then you find out...UGH that hisses me off even more!!! Lets see in my 4 years, my bro and sister have had 2, my friend Carrie has 2, girl I use to work with had one and is now preg with her 2nd that is just to name a few there are so many more. OH and the # of students lets not go there!!! I understand totally I have just learned to look at it in a different way and move forward. With out my nieces and nephews I wouldn't have the strength to get through this. Granted I still have a hard time when students tell me they are having a baby UGH I get so upset and as why all the time!!! It will all get easier to deal with and yes one day it will be you!!!.
So I go back tomorrow AM!!! Ill keep you all posted
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12/7/2011 7:23 PM
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Cntry Grl Congrats on your 3 blessings!! Hope all continues to go well!
I haven't written in a while and have been catching up on the posts. I wish everyone cycling the very best!!
I got the go ahead to start another cycle so I'm in the early stages and trying another protocol which consists of taking testosterone gel with my birth control and then it sounds like i will not be using lupron in this cycle. I'm putting my trust in God to help the doctor and nurses during this protocol and hoping for a great outcome this time.
I sound like a broken record but just so hard when there are so many people around me expecting. Seems like I learn of someone weekly. I sure hope my time is coming. I have to have patience (which is so hard for me even on a normal situation haha) and faith.
Wishing everyone the best in whatever stage of the game you all are in.
Take Care!!
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12/7/2011 6:48 PM
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CntryGrl: So glad to hear your news today. Hope your journey continues in this positive manner. Congratulations on your graduation from your RE to OB
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12/7/2011 12:41 PM
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Cntrygrl- YAY! Very happy for you! It is bittersweet leaving the RE, isn't it? It's a relief that everything is going well, but on the other hand they are so hands-on and attentive. Plus I got so used to going once or more a week. Good luck to you as you progress through your pregnancy.
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12/7/2011 10:56 AM
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Praise God...heard all 3 heartbeats again this morning. So now I can relax for all of about a few hours...right? Honestly, I do feel better. All three grew since last week and all three heartbeats were faster. I was very emotional on the way home because I didn't realize that today would be my last visit with my RE. He gave me a big hug and said to keep in touch as things progress. We are going to be sure to write him a letter and send him something to show our appreciation. He was so sweet throughout this whole process...so sad to be leaving him.
Anyway...I'm still praying so hard that things continue to go well. I go to the high risk doctor on Friday. Ready to meet with him and see what he has to say. Thanks for all of the prayers and words of support! Will continue to keep you updated.
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12/7/2011 8:48 AM
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cntrygrl - Thinking of you this morning and wishing for you that all goes well with your ultrasound. It is very normal for you to over analyse everything, I think we all do, I know I do, even at 31 weeks pregnant...I can't help it!!!! I tried to take deep breath and pray a lot, for guidance, for strenght!!!! You were in my prayers, for all four of you to be ok. Take care, keep us posted on how everything goes today!!!!
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12/6/2011 12:22 PM
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cntry grl - Cramping is very normal as your uterus expands and so even more likely for you with three! I had bad headaches on and off for the first four months due to the hormonal changes - and the nausea really does come and go - i remember many days early on feeling like I wasn't pregnant! Everything you describe seems very normal to me, but check with your RE if you are worried. I was so happy to get to 18 weeks when I started feeling movement on a regular basis!
NWells - go go go - I have everything crossed for you!
Good luck to the others cycling
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